Next to Halloween, New Years is my favorite holiday. It's a time for reflection and a time for resolution. And though we do these things throughout the year, the world comes together and celebrates the birth of something new and it's beautiful.
I usually celebrate New Years by writing. I write about my resolutions throughout the year, what I achieved and what I learned. I write about my goals for the next year and what I want to accomplish. Small things, big things. Silly things, serious things.
I usually take a selfie at 11:50pm December 31st and then another at midnight January 1st.
I like to make note of the firsts of the year. First song, first movie, first this first that.
I stay up for fireworks despite the fact I hate the noise.
I didn't do any of that this year. I passed out at ten and went to work the next morning. No journal entries. No selfies. No firsts. No fireworks.
Ever since I moved to Washington I've stopped doing things that I like. I stopped playing video games because I don't have a system. I stopped writing. I stopped painting. I stopped creative make up. Everything I love to do is packed away in a strange closet. Work keeps me busy so I don't think about these things but when I slow down enough to think about them I get sad.
Which is why 2016 is going to be a year of selfishness. I need to integrate me back into my life. My words. My art. I don't have anywhere or anybody to be this year but me and I love the possibility. So yes, my resolution this year is selfishness and it's long over do.
