Lets Chat

Hey there interwebs!

So lets chat.

Something really exciting is happening this weekend. I'm going to comic con! Well its not officially comic con but its a fan convention put on by the people who do comic con. It counts! Going to cross that one off my 2014 bucket list! woo!

I'm really really really pumped to be going. It'll be my first con type event and my brothers and I are cosplaying as characters from the Percy Jackson and Heroes of Olympus series. I've still have to make my costume. Typical me leaving everything to the last minute. If I had it done ahead of time something would be seriously wrong me.

Photos from the event (possibly the first one of my face posted here) and costume tutorials coming in the next few weeks. *crosses fingers*

What else is happening? Well my friends are coming to visit me next month! My grandma is also coming up. She's moving even farther away so it'll be the last time I see her for a while.

My computer needs a transplant. I am in need of a replacement battery so I can continue to blog! despite there being very little content I really like putting my thoughts into the void.

I put in for a writing internship a couple months ago and i'm just being honest, i'm not going to get it. BUT its the first move I've made to make writing a career. SO Hoorah! for me. If you happen to be one of the people that is from the internship place, HI, feel free to look around.

Yea... that's pretty much it. But before I go I have favor to ask. If you are reading this will you leave a comment? Please. I'm pretty much staring out into a dark, empty void when it comes to this blog  Some kind of sign of another being out there would be nice. I'd really appreciate it.
-Awel

Dont-cha Give Up

 

 

Another Monday post on a Tuesday... welp, theres no way to fix this because I don't have access to a time machine. But if it is any consultation I did pick out these tracks whilst I stayed up to see the moon change colors. it should count in the long run haha

At first this mix tape was going to be titled No Guys Allowed. there was a reason or this. when I started making these lists I noticed that the ratio of male artists to female artists in my music library was completely unbalanced and heavy handed in the male artists favor. I wasn't really baffled at this but I felt guilty for not supporting more female artists. So all of the artists preforming today's tracks are female.

But now, as you can see its no longer about an all female cast. This is the message I needed to hear and need to hear daily. I need a daily reminder to seek the positive not only in emotion but in word and action. These songs are just a handful of lyrics out there for situations like these. What are your favorite?



1. Fall Down or Fly - Lindi Ortega

This song reminds me that i'm the one that decides how situations affect me. I can either let things affect me negatively or I can let them affect me positively. Those are the only two choices, being unaffected is not even.... you can't be unaffected by anything.


2. Don't Waste the Pretty - Alison Iraheta

Fun fact Alison was a contestant on the first season of American Idol that I watched. This song has a lot of different messages. The most prominent is about a sour relationship. What I take from it is that I shouldn't waste my energy on things that are negative.


3. Give Your Heart a Break - Demi Lovato

Challenge. Listen to this song  as if you're best friend is giving you the best advice in the world (though the 'when my lips are on your lips" line doesn't really go with this take on the song).  Sometimes you just need someone to be there for you.


4. Fly - Hilary Duff

Nothing like pulling the soundtrack of your tween years off the dust shelf.


5. Stronger - Kelly Clarkson

Victory chant!



I'm going to leave it at that. Thanks for hanging out with me.
-Awel

The Thought of You (2014)

i quit

 

i'm done

 

the thought of You pulls me back in

 

every time without fail

 

it takes but a second for me to apologize

 

for me to beg for forgiveness

 

after all this is all my fault

 

i gave up on us

 

i hadn't thought about how You would feel

 

i'm the bad guy here

 

i'm so sorry

 

all is forgiven

 

and it begins again

 

I leave

 

the thought of You pulls me back in

 

but this time its different

 

this time blood is drawn

 

a blow to the back of my head

 

a few broken ribs

 

fingernail trails running down my legs like ruined hosiery

 

whats wrong?

 

what have i done?

 

i'm not good enough

 

it's all my fault

 

i'm the bad guy

 

please forgive me

 

time passes

 

i realize that something has changed

 

what once made me happy has turned against me

 

my precious thought of You

 

now a monster

 

i run

 

the thought of You pulls me back in

 

this time its worse

 

why?

 

why are You so angry?

 

why are You acting this way?

 

please tell me!

 

i need to know

 

its in the loneliness where I find my answer

 

the thought of You is desperate

 

the thought of You knows i am growing stronger

 

the thought of You is afraid of losing me

 

because without me the thought of You dies

 

disappears

 

ceases to exist

 

You need Me

 

but I no longer need you

 

so I run

 

and the thought of you pulls Me in again

 

but this time I am not afraid

 

this time I am not sorry

 

this time I am determined

 

and I run

 

the thought of you pulls Me back in

 

I'm sorry

 

but I do not apologize to you

 

its for Me

 

because today I am not strong enough

 

but tomorrow is another story

 

and all the tomorrows after that

 

 I will run

 

I will crawl

 

I will fight

 

My precious little thought of you

 

the monster in My head

 

will fade

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 



April Fools

Today is April 1st and if you haven't fallen for an April fools day joke yet I don't know if I can trust you. A big thank you to @CaptainSparklez for fooling me this morning.

Now you may be wary about this mix tape given the festivities of the day. Let me put your mind at ease by saying the only fools day joke in this post is that I was supposed to write this on a Monday. It hasn't been Monday for at least 10 1/2 hours and wont be Monday again for at least another 6 days. Yes the joke is that this is a Monday post posted on Tuesday. My procrastination has finally come in handy!

Lets get started shall we?


1. Topsy Turvy, Disney's Hunchback of Notre Dame

I admit and feel no shame that this song was not on the list last night. Its on the list now. The rest of this list is themed around spring. I truly don't know why these songs remind me of spring.

2. Lovebug, Sail By the Stars

3. Loving You is Easy, Ben Rector

4. Honey and the Bee, Owl City

5. Simple Life, Casey Abrams

6. Songbird, Jillian Edwards

7. Make Believe, Meghan & Lucas

8. Reaching, Jason Reeves



Well that's my list for this week. What are you guys listening to?
-Awel